Part Three ; "Grow old with me".
" A sane man in an insane world ".
Part Three
" Grow old with me ".
As I think as to what I shall write, I am slowly getting in "the
zone" where everything flows and I can keep typing as fast as I'm
thinking. I rely on inspiration and the
natural flow of thought to write my Bloggs rather than prepared material. I
don't know what I will write until I tune into the flow of my thoughts.
As I grow older I've discovered that time speeds up and there isn't enough
time to do all the things I plan for my day.
Things appear to take longer to do and sometimes it appears that i cover
the same territory twice. It takes longer to do things when one is in their
60's/ 70's, therefore Time appears to speed up.
We wake up one day to discover " 10 years have got behind us "
and our life is growing short.
Some days go by so fast that it's difficult remembering what I did during
the time and memory re-call on the other hand appears to slow down. So my days are passing faster and my memory
recall is slowing down.
Being conscious of Time can be very Time consuming and I am
instinctively aware of what time of day
it is at all times. I can feel each day as it dawns and travels through my
conscious mind until I go to sleep each evening.
If I am outside I can usually judge
what time of day it is by the position of the Sun in the sky and the shadow it
casts on objects.
I am aware of the singing birds at
dawn; the warmth of the day at Noon and the cooling of the setting Sun.
I suspect that time only appears to be moving faster because I am growing
older and I'm getting slower in doing the things I do.?
I also suspect that this assumption could be wrong and that my biology is
changing and producing chemicals that effect my perceptions of time as I grow
older. Perhaps the truth of the matter can be found in the possibility that
"time isn't constant".
Perhaps states of consciousness can alter the flow of time and if we
therefore percieve that "time is flying by", it will.
If we percieve that "time is dragging" then it will.
Our thoughts can influence the flow of time simply by changing our thinking
and projecting a more desireable speed of time.
Time is everywhere and nowhere at the same time and it's flow and
passing fluctuates throughout the universe.
The cosmic matrix of the Universe changes as we travel through our
galaxy and the density changes as we journey through the cosmic soup.
Gravitational fields fluctuate throughout the Cosmos and influence the flow of
"Time" within & without Space.
It's important what you do with your time and not important about the
length of the lifetime you are given.
Many live a long life and yet do very little with it, whilst others live
short lives and achieve a lot in their lifes.
It's important to remain productive and active after we retired from our
working life, yet many are sitting on their asses and doing bugger all.
I say, wake up and enjoy all the beauty around you in your twilight/ sunset
years and get involved with life and don't let it pass you by. It's time to
explore all of your desires and interests and give your Soul some new
experiences to cherish. Your childhood dreams can become a reality today and
you can achieve any challenge you take on.
At 60 years of age I finally achieved one of my childhood dreams when I set
up my own small home recording studio and recorded my debut album "The world's
gone crazy". I bought a number of musical instruments and taught myself
how to play them and then set about writing some songs to record. I recorded 10 songs over a period of one year
and played all the instruments and sang all the vocals on each song. I learnt
my craft as I went along and I'm exceptionally happy with the end result.
Part of my childhood dream was for me to be in total control of the project
and to make the album/cd available to the world.
I uploaded the albums/ cd contents to my Myspace page and offered music
fans "Free Downloads" of all the songs. I wanted to have my music/songs available to
music fans around the world and wasn't interested in making money from my
creations.
Over 35,000 people became a Fan and my music was being listened to by
millions around the globe. My childhood dream had become a reality and I realised
that I could achieve whatever I wish if I have the tools and apply myself.
I kept my studio going for 4 years during which time I recorded around 40
songs or 4 albums/cd's of material.
Due to health and financial reason, I abandoned the studio and closed it
all down; selling off much of the equipment.
It was a real blow for me at first to have to abandon my music and decided
perhaps it was time for me to move on and perhaps aim for another unrealised
dream? Sometimes events in our lifes
change our directions and offer us different options or paths to follow. We all need to accept change when it happens
for it often opens up new exciting challenges and experiences.
Between 1976 & 1982 I spent much of my time researching and writing a
book titled "The greatest story never told" which investigated the
rumour that The Beatles had reformed under the name of Klaatu. I sat on this
amazing manuscript for over 30 years and decided I needed to release my story
to the world.
In 2014 I set up my own Blogspot and set about publishing my manuscript in
Chapter Form, which took me 3 years to achieve. I typed out over 350 pages;
added over 200 pictures and over 35 videos to my 9 Chapter Blogg.
My manuscipt has been read by millions of music fans around the globe and I
am so pleased by the outcome.
Soon after the completion of my "The Greatest story never told"
Blogg, I finally met up with Terry Draper from Klaatu and shared a few hours
chatting over a few beers down at Coogee Beach.
I acheived my dream of publishing my manuscript and meeting one of the
finest songwriters of all time. I rate
the songs of Klaatu better than most of the songs by The Beatles; they were a
super group.
Currently I have several Bloggs in progress and will soon release the
latest Chapter of my Blog " The lifes of Brian"; a parody of the life
of Jesus and his friend Brian.
Seachanges happens in all our lifes and usually occur when least expected
and we need to accept that nothing stays the same forever.
My Time in my Sunset Years is spent
on reading , writing and enjoying the beauty all around me.
I am a Single openminded, enlightened male and delight in all that is known
and unknown.
Being Single gives me the freedom to choose "who I love and who I
sleep with", and I have had many lovers of both sexes over the past 28
years. I am neither hetro or gay, I relate to people as individuals and
carefully choose intamacy with those I trust and feel sexually attracted to . I
am equally attracted to both females and males, but at my age it appears
impossible to find a suitable female for an intimate relationship. Ive looked
under every nook and craney without success. On the other hand, a man of my age
is desireable to young/ younger males.
In todays Gay Society, just about every man and his dog are open to
exploring their gay sex side.
"Most married men would marry their boyfriend if their wive's would
let them".
Many straight guys with girlfriends often "secretly explore m2m
sex" without their partner every knowing. I believe we all should be free
to explore all our desires and fantasies as long as both participants accepts
one's limitions/boundaries.
What turns one person on doesnt always turn the other on.
Sharing sexual pleasure is the objective, which has nothing to do with
Love. Sex and Love are two seperate
identities and should never be confused with each other.
One doesn't need to Love someone to have sex with them; often we are drawn
to each other due to chemical attraction.
Perhaps as we grow older, we become more open minded about the taboo''s of
yesterday and become more accepting of the changing sexual landscape??
"It's not important who you Love, but it is important that you
Love."
I feel Blessed to be alive and I'm
truly gratefull for each moment that I'm alive. Life is my greatest reward and
I desire not for all its material possession.
I am happy just TO BE.
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